Don't Ever Feel Like You're Less

  

       So for this blog entry I wanted to pull back from the regular and pointless things I normally write about. Just two days ago I found out a very, very close friend of mine wanted to commit suicide, she sat down in front of me at our little girls sleepover night and told me she couldn't take it any more. She cried and said she wanted to kill her self and that it was not her first time thinking about it. That really scared me, I never knew she felt this way at all because of how easily she hid it, and I realised she was not the only person out there who felt this way. I want to let everybody who has ever felt the way me friend did, that you are not alone. You might think none of us understand and nobody can ever fix what is making you feel like this, but it is not true. All those voices that are telling you there is no point in going on in this world, that it is better to get out while you can is wrong. There is always hope. I'm not religious or anything, but I do believe that all bad things come to an end. There is always something worth living for. My friend told me that she did not care anymore because she thinks nobody else cared; that was the most naive thing I have ever heard. Who cares? You're family, you're friends, you're neighbors, you're teachers, you're cousins and aunts! This list can go on for ever! You have to stay strong, stand your ground; you have to stand up when it's all crashing down. Stand through the pain, you wont drown and one day whats lost can be found. I hope you know how incredible you are and how precious you are. Those stupid thoughts in your head, scrue it! They don't matter! Whenever you feel like you can't handle life anymore and you think you are ready to let go, you should know that the people you leave behind will never be ready to let go of you. So next time you have the urge to hurt yourself or you think about suicide, think about the people you love and love you back, think about all the things in your life you haven't experienced or accomplished and how grateful you are. But, then there are some who live hard lives and have no family or no home. You might think it's okay for you, but it is not. We are all the same. We all have times were we think and feel the same things. Show the people who hate you or doubted you and told you that you can't do this or you're not good enough for this; prove them wrong. Show the people who feel you are a waste that they are wrong. That you are not different, you are a strong individual with a bright future ahead of you.

So, I wanted to make this post to let everybody know how special they are and how precious each breath they take is. Don't ever for a second doubt yourself or feel worthless because you are not even close to that. You are strong, brave, smart, precious, beautiful/handsome and you can handle whatever obstacle you think might overpower you.

With Lots of Love,
                       Silver

Don't Be a Drag Just Be a Queen!

      So I have just decided I am going to share my most embarrassing moment. The ONE THING THAT CAN RUIN MY LIFE, I'm going to tell the whole world :) It's all apart of the new me salad bar (I really dont know why I put salad bar in there, I just thought it gave it edge). It was in the 10th grade and I was invited to a very pointless stupid Halloween party. very stupid. And lets be clear, I was not the most popular girl in High School; if we were to use that popularity chart, I was basically below plankton. That did not make sense. Anyway, whatever I was the nerd. So I get invited and my invitation I guess was different than everybody else... I wonder why.... It said it was a Drag Party as in Drag Queen. And because all the cool ppl were going, my response to the invite was: "Oh MY GOD!! REALLY!!" and thats where the plot begins. I go home and do all this crazy makeup and wore my really glittery clothes that my mom bought me when we went to our annual girl bonding day: She wanted to go thrift shopping because she said it looks a lot of fun in the movies. The clothes smelt like they've been used at an underground rave party... Anyway, I dress up and I get to the girls house and all and when the door opens it turns out it was the girls god dam party. I really hate her still. A lot. Well, you know the rest, I was the only one there drest as a Drag Queen and I was made fun of for the rest of my life and probably still will be until I decide to move to Alaska. Thats right ALASKA! Man that girl was a real bitch. But she did end up going to Military School when my embarrassing parents decided to talk to her parents. YAY!! Well yes that is my most embarrassing moments, although I have more this is probably my number 1! And I kind of admire those girls, they are so dumb they couldn't have come up with their own "prank" (if thats what you would call it..), they had to watch the whole Legally blond movie to get the idea. Shows how much effort they put into making ppl feel bad. Brains over Beauty girls!

Rockets,
          Silver

First post....

So when I opened up my blog, I was wondering why the hell nobody subscribed! Ha ha, just kidding. It's probably because I hadnt post anything yet, or maybe it's because I am so awesome. Nope, can't be that. Anyway, because it is my first post I wanted to write about something personal. Justin Bieber. As you read my posts you will notice I love him (don't hate!) the kids like a mini god! he should win an oscar for his amazing hair! What can I say, I've got Bieber Fever! He is just amazing! Okay before you decide your never coming back to my blog. I would think twice.... or-or maybe ONE TIME!! HA HA! I am so funny! no kidding I'm not. So, I am going to be the first one to say my first post sucks crap. AHH I dont know what to write, so I am just going to sign off now.. Bye.